thanx but no thanx!

this is the most un-asked, unwarranted and Ludicrous piece of advice EVER! That too from some random person! hmph!
A: anythn new at ur end?
me: new...toh nuthing much
A: any guy?
me: lol
nah
A: y?
me: dunno!
A: he he
me: wassup wid u?
A: same old story
A: b a lil hot
u will get guys

huh??

I have a friend who I've never met. Over the years, at some point of time, I've fallen in love with him...gotten over him...cared for him like crazy...been mad at him...had the most inane conversations with him...been bugged by him infinitely...shared a super rapport with...and currently, am 'staying away'...He's one person with whom I can't really describe my relationship. I don't know how it is for him, 'coz I don't believe his cheesy melodrama :)...but I know that at some level, I hope that he means what he says...'coz I do.

With him, I feel a special bond...a weird connection...It's not a romantic connection...but it isn't completely platonic either. I'm not 'in love' with him but I love him loads. Sometimes he's like a big brother...all concerned and sweet (okay...I admit this is kinda rare..lol). At others, he's meaner than possibly imaginable...and at still others he's pathetically cheesy...but I have so much fun talking to him!

I used to think of our conversations as a 'zone' where I could chill n be myself...but then, how can I "be" anything in a text convo?!

Right now, as I mentioned earlier...we aren't really talking...and I can't figure out what I'm feeling 'bout this...ughh...forget it!