Nov 27, 2009

if i shut my mind and don't let myself think
if i pretend that there is lots to do and hardly any time
then the pain doesn't seem so bad...it is negligible.
it's almost as if nothing happened
i've been trying
and i am getting better
at fooling myself into believing that everything is okay
but if i drop my guard for even a moment
the flood of emotions is too overpowering...
i'm doing quite well
if i say so myself
maybe, if i try a lil harder, i will forget about the pain.

5 comments:

Runjoo said...

this is the most moving piece i have read on your blog.
*big hug*

Nima said...

Heard about Dennis..had read about him earlier..I faced the same thing recently, I know how it feels. I know you would miss him forever but you would also move on! And I wish I could say something that eases the pain and helps fill the void, I dont know of anything..I can tell you something, someone told me " Crying over the dead is disrespectful,it makes them suffer" I tried to stop crying after this! **Love**

saloni said...

aditi...this is a brilliant write up!i was bad to dennis everytime i visited ur house!i used to make u lock him in the other room!sorry!!

creyzeee said...

@nima - thnx...i'm over the tears now...bt ur right, i will miss him forevr...just trying to live with that :)

@saloni - haww..dnt say sorry n all! n u alwaz came home for less than 5 mins, that duznt count :)

bling said...

hmm..it happens..u cant let your guard down..u have to be strong and fight it..all the time..but u r right..u r doing very well..:)