my almost-accident

I banged into a car today! Completely my fault. Not much damage...but I was shit scared!! It seemed right outta one of my worst nightmares - I hit an HR registration wali gadi through no fault of the other driver! In my defense, I thought that he had alredy taken the turn. I was inching towards left, all the while vigilantly looking at my right (and Nowhere else!)...and BAM! (okay, maybe it was just bam!)
Anyway, for a few long seconds I was totally frozen in my seat, almost expecting him to come over and stab me (i've got too much Delhi in my head)! And the first part did happen..that is, he did get down from his car and came over...but the rest was Totally unexpected! I aplogized as soon as he was within earshot (I was not going to get outta my car)...and kept doing so for a while. He just put up his hand in a saintly way and said, "Naye naye chalana seekhe ho?". The first thought that came to my head was, 'shit! been driving for almost a year now and this is what I put across to people?? Or is he being mean just b'coz i'm a woman??' However, I could just croak a meek 'yes' and he merely nodded understandingly and was off! Yes!! that's real!!! I can't even start describing the relief I felt! Leave alone killing me, he didn't even scream at me! I was all light headed and woozy for a bit...When he drove away, I finally got down to check what I had done to my car...Mujhe toh ek scratch bhi nahi dikha :D
And the best part is, in this city of mine where people are beaten to death for smaller offences, I felt utterly blessed! This just goes on to show that there are still nice people out there...and a tiny percentage are lucky enough to bang into their cars :) God bless that HR wala Alto-man!
P.s. Later papa told me that the bumper (or mudguard or watever the black thing in the front is called), had come off a bit! but who cares! at least he didn't kill me ;)

i am d kinda person who loves to believe that things are as they appear...i would like nothing better than to accept things at face value and not analyze them AT ALL...(which often makes me wonder if i've chosen the right profession for myself...maybe not! but that's a different matter altogether!)...abhi ke liye, wat i'm tryin to say is that some things are better done randomly...as in, without giving it much thought....like watching a movie...Esply watching a movie!!

Brainwave! lol lol lol....abhi 1 bohot cheezzzzzzzy dialogue yaad aya..."Mohabbat zindagi ki tareh hai...har morh asaan nahi hota...lekin jab hum mushkilo mein zindagi ka saath nahi chhodte, toh mohabbat ka kyun chhode?" Similarly, movie watching is also like 'zindagi'...or 'mohabbat' if u please! its not necessary that u watch only good movies...and it's absolutely futile to judge a movie by someone else's opinion!
i miss watching random movies! :(

Aamir.

First things first – Aamir is a brilliantly made movie. Very real type. I won’t say ‘believable’ ‘coz that would undermine its credibility…considering that I found Main Hoon Na and HAHK pretty believable too! So, it’s a Must Watch kinda film…at least for people who like the kinda movies that I do.
The intricacies of how the protagonist's mind works… his dilemma, his frustration… has been portrayed beautifully. Kudos to the actor and director!
As the movie progressed, I could not only feel for Aamir, but I often identified with his angst so completely that it felt like my own. For how long can one hold on to a lifelong baggage of beliefs when faced with such a situation? How does a person choose between life and death for his loved ones? How do you choose between You and the world? How do you decide if selfish is a better option than selfless? And what if selfless is in fact selfish?

There must be at least a few Aamirs in real life too...and that's scary. Makes me wonder, is being a non-radical Muslim in our country so difficult? Why do broadminded, tolerant people have to pay the price for the narrowmindedness of a fundamentalist few? It's really really sad!
The song that accompanies the credits at the end... "Ek Lau" is ... beyond words actually!

dhoop ke ujale si

os ke pyale si

khushiyan miley humko...

zyada manga hai kahan

sarhadein na ho jahan

duniya miley humko...

par khuda khair kar

iske armaan mein kyun

bewajeh ho koi qurbaan...

(And the rendition by Shilpa Rao is amazing...)



Is that too much to ask for?? When will we learn to live in peace? Or is violence so much a part of humans that being "human" takes a backseat?

Religion, God, faith...what are these? Are they doing us any good? Would we not be better off if these ‘social’ phenomenona were more personal than communal?? Would we not be much happier if God was personal...if each person could choose his own ishwar, allah or rabb...if no one had the authority to decide this for anyone else? Not in the name of religion...not in the name of anything!

Religion is something that man created to give structure to his unexplained experiences...but the convoluted sense in which most fanatics portray religion and religious beliefs is not just pathetic, but ridiculous!What I'm trying to say here is...let us practice 'to each his own'...let us Believe in whatever we want to with all our heart...but let us not force our beliefs on anyone...'coz that only undermines what we believe in. No?

why has anger become the default emotion for so many of us?

"...Why are we angry all the time? And why do we get so angry over so little? It is normal to feel anger in some situations. Rage is resonable human response when our desires are thwarted and our needs unmet. But surely the level of anger should be proportionate to the provocation? But increasingly, that's not the case in our modern world. It seems to take the slightest thing to set us off on a homicidal rage. It's almost as if we are human time bombs, ticking over in quiet desperation and all it takes is the slightest nudge to make us explode. Is it that the frenetic pace of modern life has made us so demanding and impatient that we want everything and we want it now? Or have we developed such a huge sense of entitlement that we cannot bear to be thwarted? Or is it simply that we have turned into overgrown babies who can only cope with disappointment by throwing giant temper tantrums? In which case, perhaps it's not too late to grow up."
[Excerpt from HT Brunch, 29 June '08: 'All The Rage' by Seema Goswami]

the above lines are not mine...but i couldn't hav agreed more! wat is rong wid ppl these days??? y is every1 so touchy?! n so aggressive bout every lil thing?
it's as if everyone is rushing...and each one feels he is the be-all n end-all of everything that even a lil hint of this bubble bursting is taken as an offence...